In this world there are two types of people (So generic, I know. Just go with it)…there are givers and takers. In my young adulthood it has become exceedingly apparent that I am a giver. I’m always the one who offers to drive, to have the party at my house, to help clean up once everyone else leaves. You get the picture, I’m a generous gal. However generosity is a tricky trait, because it is often something people take advantage of.
Generosity is something that has been instilled in me ever since childhood. My parents and grandparents have always been extremely generous people and have always taught me to be respectful and thoughtful. They always taught me that you can do a lot with a little and that you don’t need to be rich to live a luxurious life. Most of my family worked in blue-collar jobs, having grown up on the streets of NYC with little education and a level of street smarts that is probably unimaginable to most kids these days.
Nowadays, I feel like most young adults my age, live in an ego-centric world and are totally oblivious to the world around them. Generosity is not commonplace and is rarely reciprocal. This leaves me in an awkward position. How do I learn how to be selfish? I’m not saying I’m an angel or that I’m not selfish to an extent, because I totally am (I often hoard the last spoonful of almond butter so no one else can eat it). I have to learn how to accept the fact that all people were raised differently and that it’s ok for people to be the way that they are. Which is SO HARD.
Example: I have friends that in theory, their parents make enough money for them to go to school and probably live in a metropolitan city for 5 years so that they never have to worry about loans or rent. Sounds nice, right? Well, what I have learned is that these people are assholes when it comes to money. I owed my friend $2.43 for something and despite the fact that I drove her around all the time and would always share my stuff with her, SHE STILL ASKED FOR THE FUCKING $2.43 INCESSANTLY. I made sure I paid her back every penny, in pennies (which everyone knows is like the fuck you of paying people back). Anyway, this year I picked up the tab for something and she still hasn’t paid me back and it’s been 5 weeks. I’m sounding sort of bitter so I’ll stop ranting now. But, just to drive the point home that I need to learn how to be a little more stingy, for I don’t have a disposable income.
I wish people my age were able to see the big picture and could understand that being thoughtful and generous are traits that will give them a much richer life. For now, there are only a few people I know who get it. In the meantime, I’m going to continue to be that person who takes out the trash when it’s not my week and the person that spots someone $5 and is not a nazi about getting it back. Because, that’s just who I am and I’m hoping it will pay off later.